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NO TITLE - 1st random post of 2010

2010-11-29T19:37:00.003+08:00

Here am i sitting here in front of my computer after one year thinking what have i actually achieved within this year? Other than feeling burnt out, i would say i have achieved nothing for this year other than trying my best to please people around me. One year ago, my aim was to make people around me happy, maybe i have manage to achieve it but at the same time i think i've hurt a few cause i somehow feel that nothing can ever satisfy people cause at some point you'll fail to meet their expectations and you'll be judge by the wrong things you've done. Sitting down right now, i cant think of anything really good to write about my experiences this year other than manage to meet a two interesting people like adrian and greg 2 months back in melbourne that brought me joy and happiness and i hope many more to come.

Friends are like family, cause family is not just about blood, its bigger than that. Its the people that you choose to let in in your life, family is about support and working through things together. Recently when i came back home from dinner one night, i was told that all the things i went through with this good friend of mine who now is not in melbourne is now water under the bridge.. It came as a shock to me cause i trully appreciate him as one of very best friends. All in all, does distance deter one from getting close to another? maybe and maybe not.

Secondly, are relationships an element that will improve the way of life or is it part of life? I myself take relationship as being an element that will add joy and fulfillment to life. Having one or not is not important but however i acknowledge that we are all human beings and its nice sometimes to come back home knowing that there is someone waiting for us and to be able to cuddle someone in bed to sleep. However is it worth giving up friendships because of someone, definitely i'll say NO! However i have no idea how have i landed myself in a situation where one of my very good friend actually thought that i am stealing his potential partner away and stopped talking to me since then. Does insecurities of one causes one to act in this particular way where friends are not as important as partners? However the past is already a different story, but future can be changes. Well i know i have to start somewhere to amend this problem.

Before i end this first random post for the year, one question that i put forward to the readers of my blog (if there is still any reading it), why is everyone being so judgemental of little things when there are bigger issues out there which is yet to be settled.

Death.. Dreams.. Desire

2009-12-14T17:22:00.002+08:00

I was watching My sister's keeper with Micah, Adrien and Joyce yesterday at home. Our plan of going out with natalie to celebrate her birthday did not go on! Cause people like Jessie cannot confirm! Anyway we ended up buying dvd's and watched this movie and it was good. Micah watched it before and told us that we will sure cry! But at the end of the day, proffan is the only one crying. All in all it was a good movie.

Death is something which we can't actually expect when it will happen. So i will always say that live your life to the fulless where if you die tomorrow, you have nothing to regret on the things that you've not done. Though none of us would say that we've done everything that we could have done, but what i wish is that when we turn back and look past our history, each of us will say that i've done something which i am proud of and i am not guilty of my past history and i've live my life the way i've wanted it to be. Most of all is that you're happy while you are alive. Then i would say that you have live your life to the fulless.

Dreams? What are our dreams? i came across this quote: "rich people, old people, poor people do deserve to have dreams as well" Someone can dream of the wildest dream in the world, but will that ever happen? We dont know. One of my friend was telling me how he was interviewing a new marketing executive, and that the new worker's dream car is just a BMW 5 series. And to me its nothing wrong, but to those marketing people, BMW 5 series is not considered a dream car. So sometimes one person's dream is one's reality.

Desire? Do we have desire in life? Do we allow the desire in our life to consume us? As i've work in CIMB so far, i've seen people being consume by work just to be able to achieve their desire in life. My desire now is to be happy of whatever im doing and to be able to satisfy people around me. However, sometimes things fall apart in life so that other things can fall together. I've seen many things fall apart: family, friends, relationship, companies. But do we learn something out of it or are we too proud to learn from other people?

I came to realize that in life each person has their own motivation which motivates them to continue living. Till now i'm still trying to figure out what's my motivation in life. Is my motivation being limited to work, studies? hhmm.. i still dont know. Right now my motivation is to make myself happy and to make people around me happy. Other than that, if everr things were to fall apart, i'll be in a mess.

Dostet Darum.

Expectations.. down with flu....

2009-12-10T11:04:00.003+08:00

Sneezing in the office is not a fun thing.. walking up and down to the toilet.. is so annoying.. my nose is killing me! arghh!! hate the dust here in KL!!!

So..again in life.. there are a lot of expectations. Expectations from others, expectations that you set for others and also expectations that you set for yourself. But the question is that what do you do with all those expectations? This became a topic of discussion because one of my friend is turning 30, and he was like going on and on about what has he achieve in life or what expectations in life has he yet to achieve.

So as i think about it, you can usually confront your expectations and deal with it or leave it alone. Well i usually confront it and try to achieve those expectations that i have for myself.

What about expectations that others have on you? Sometimes it can be hard and challenging and yet it is up to you whether are you going to accept it and meet those expectations or try to pretend you dont know. Sometimes the expectations of others set on you could be too high and at times can be disappointing, however i guess at the end of the day, it all boils down to understanding between both parties that are involves or multiple parties.

Anyway.. was reading few days ago.. and came across this few quotes:
1. The message loses its effectiveness when the messenger behaves badly
2. Men are like parking spots, the good ones are taken and the ones that are left.. Hhhmmm
3. There is always a way to be good again.. (Totally agree on this one)

Now im in the office.. just waiting for lunch time to come.. cause waiting for my colleague to come back to recheck some figures.. hhmm... my tummy is hungry!!!

There is only one sin in the world

2009-12-02T08:52:00.005+08:00

Just got into the office this morning.. I am now reading a book which is called the kite runner.. Pretty good book actually. As i was reading yesterday night before i went to bed.. i came across a few sentence which i feel is quite true. It goes like this:

"There is only one sin in the world, that is theft.
Every other sin in a variation of theft
When you kill a man, you steal his life;
You steal his wife's right to a husband;
Rob his children of a father.
When you tell a lie,
You steal someone's right to know the truth.
When you cheat,
You steal the right to fairness."

Yesterday night for the first time in a long time, i manage to get a good sleep. Not enough though!! Well everyone would say that they never get enough of sleep! I'm now sitting in the office thinking will my work life be like this when i graduate?! There are so many things to do and yet so little time! Work sometimes can be frustrating and i hope as time goes by, i'll be able to adopt to this culture within this 2 and half months! I dont know how people can do it, when someone start work at 8.30 and finish work at least around 7pm at night!! This job culture never happens in melbourne!

Anyway, i just got the news my boss is on M.C! HHMM!!! But there are still lots of things to be done! Need to prepare for presentation tomorrow morning and no research has been done for tomorrow!!

CYA!!!! XOXO!

Anniversary.. Work...

2009-12-01T08:52:00.003+08:00

Today is my first month together with E.. and i can say that i'm still very happy to be in a relationship with E... Though there are some insecurities and some questions into this relationship.. but i guess everything comes in one package!! All i can say is that" everytime i close my eyes, i thank the Lord that i've found you"!

Besides that, i've been working in CIMB for the last one week.. and its been an experience i would say. Once again im back in CIMB! But this time round i'm allocated to Group Strategies, under ms. Gan Pai Li. First day at work was pretty much kinda tiring for me cause i never expect myself to finish work at 6.30! The trend here is that work finish at least around 6.30 even if you have nothing to do! But the good thing is that your have around one and half hour for lunch! This is because there is no place for lunch at all around the office block.. so everyone pretty much have to drive out!! HAHAH!!

Yesterday i came across this sentense while reading some book.. It states that man's plumbing is like his mind.. simple and very few surprises! However woman's plumbing is very complicated and God has made them that complicated!! HHMM!!

When i think of you
All i can say is thank you
You brought something fresh into my life
Which i've never expect it to happen
Laughter and smile is all i can think of
Lay down at my bed side
All i wish was you lying on me
One month came like a flash
But i know there will be many more months to come
The time we spend together will always be in my memories
Me, You, friends and families laughing together
All i can say now is I Love You!

-Jon G - 1/12/2009

Just before i finish typing.. my boss started giving me work again!
Dead line is thursday morning!
HAHAHA! OH NOO!!!

2009 special events!!!

2009-11-23T02:39:00.008+08:00

Let me start from the beginning of the year, first and foremost i think was mardi gras 2009! It was a fantastic event and a good time being with all my close friends partying like crazy. It was one of the best party i've been to. By the time we finished, we could see the sun coming out and we were wearing sunnies to prevent ourselves from being exposed to the public. LOL!!

Then i think the next big thing was jayson's surprise birthday party!! This was when he actually turned 26!!! Still very young of course!! Even though he always complain that he is getting old and he is destined to be single! LOL!

Following jayson's birthday was Julian's birthday! It was fun and crazy too. Not too sure what i can remember from that party other than being trashed again! But when i looked at mardi gras pictures, i look so much leaner compared to NOW!! OMGG!!! time to tone up before taipei..

(I know the picture is a little bit too small.. SORRY)

Finally.. it came to my BIGGG 21st birthday. Celebrated it with dr.ting and luke. It was a night to remember! Without all my friends coming to my 21st, it will not be fun at all. Thank you to all my friends who made my 21st birthday bash a night to remember!! At the same time, i manage to talked to one of my long lost friend once again in market! Something that i will not forget when my friend remembered to wished me Happy Birthday! and i was shocked that he remembered actually!!

Anyway.. come to year end now. I'm still waiting for something to surprise me from behind. Eventhough i've got lots of surprises already.. for example being attached to someone that i never ever thought of!

Christmas is coming... im waiting for santa to drop me a present that i can never imagine i would get!! LOL! Might it be tangible or intangible! hhmm..

Anyway.. im blogging at 3am in the morning.. while thinking of my partner. better sign off now!!Nights everyone!! xoxo

BLOGGING.. and PENANG once again!!!

2009-11-21T15:14:00.002+08:00

Hi all..

Its been a year since i blogged!! once again i would say that it has been an amazing year since the start. Fall in love, fall out of love, fall back in again, fall out again.. and finally now im falling back in again! As for now, im back in penang once again for holiday! THREE months away from melbourne is going to be boring. But going back there in January for my sister's big wedding. I think thats the only wedding my parents will ever have. LOL! Besides that, I'll be working in KL for 2 and half months in CIMB Investment Bank under Group Strategy, Regional Branding. I hope this will be an exciting job so that i would be able to learn a lot to prepare myself for next year! One more year of studies, and i am off into the real workforce! WOOT!!

Now im just sitting in front of my mom's computer thinking of my partner which is not too far away from me. Partner once asked: "Whats our future"? I secretly started thinking of this big question, whats our future? One is in tasmania and one is in melbourne? Another LDR? But all i have has been put into this relationship and i trust things will work out in its own way.

I've not felt the warmth of a relationship for a very long time till now and i'm currently very happy with it. I've never want to put full effort into a relationship because i always think it will not last. Either that, i will always think of another person that i liked before that i hoped this person will fall for me once and for all. But come this time round, my current partner is great and kind hearted, and loving which i will never ask for more. All i would probably ask is that i have more time to spend with E.

Like the rushing of the waves,
I come to you carried by the silky tides of passion.
Appearing unquestioned, unhurt
As we lay side by side
Our arms entangled in a tight embrace,
Holding on for dear life,
Wanting time to move in slow motion.
Questions banished,
My thoughts are only you.
Whenever you kiss me I feel safe.
With you I am home, worries are cast aside.
Each loving caress, every gentle stroke savored,
A carefree man becoming
A little girl cuddled and adored.
Feverishly listening to every breath,
Expecting it to last forever.
You are my sanctuary amidst all the chaos,
Now I have proven
That heaven is not after death
For I am always in Paradise when I am with you

Anyway, up to here i'll write. I promise more post will come up as soon as i gathered my thoughts together and more of this years photos will be posted up here. Take care everyone. xoxo

Deepest fears??!!

2008-11-02T15:52:00.003+08:00

our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate;
our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure;
we asked ourself who am i,
to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented and fabulous;
actually, who are you not to be?
we were born to make manifest
the glory of God that is within us
and as we let our own light shine
we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same
(movie : akeelah and the bee)

Therefore, you can be who you want you want to be.. the question is what you want to be and not who you are not to be! But the fact is are we afraid what we are suppose to be?

Whats my deepest fear in life? I asked myself why do i want to put myself through all these hardship and try to be someone that i am not suppose to be.
Why should i put up a smile when i am sad?! But one thing i tell myself is that when i put up a smile, at least i'll make someone happy.

five hundred twenty five thousand six hundred minutes in one year, how do we measure?!!

2008-10-13T06:46:00.005+08:00

(from left: Jason 2, me, charles, ryan, aaron and wen)

Lets see.. i've watched this movie RENT yesterday with a friend which is really awesome!!! And it had me thinking for quite some time.. there is five hundred twenty five thousand six hundred minutes in one year, but what do we get out of every minute that we spend? And how do we measure?

It was kinda depressing to watch that movie as people dies in that movie, however it does remind me that life is short, why do we complicate our life that much??!! Why do we think so much and make things hard for ourself??

Do we actually exist in this world meaning that do we have an impact on someone's life?? If one day i just go missing, will someone actually realize that jonathan went missing??!! I think i have the certainty to say that at least 5 of my friends will actually realize that!! And i am happy to actually have them. One of my friend told me that a friend is always a friend, but who u surround urself with is important as they play a big influence in your life! I guess this is quite true. If someone who is close to you is synical, negative - hence u will be effected by them as well and vice versa.

Another question that got me thinking was is there actually a MR.Right, or Miss Right?? I told him maybe there is, maybe not. And his reply to me was maybe there is Mr. Right Now. I do agree to a big portion of what he says. And my reply was we think that we found Mr.Right or Ms.Right but circumstances does not allow us to do so.

Anyway.. all i got to say is life is short, don't make things so complicated for yourself.

"What do you want??"

2008-06-27T08:36:00.003+08:00

In life, it all boils down to what you want? This can be very simple question and can be a very complicated question.
Do you believe the goodness in people, where the goodness can be seen and where the goodness can be exemplified through yourself?? AND as well as the greatness can be seen through you.
Have you made the wrong choices in life, and have you reach a point where you want to repair all the wrong choices??
Do you want your family, do u want a family?
Do you want to be a man that someone can trust or even someone that deserve to be love?
Do you want hope in ur life, do u know that you've made the right choices in life and have think about what you want in life?

Now come to the question of what I want? What jonG wants in life?
I want to be known as a caring person and a person that deserve someone in life, deserve to be love.
I want someone who i can love, who i can care for.
I want to have a purpose in life, believing that some day i will reach that goals that i want and some day i will be contented in life.
I want to believe in the existence of God. I want to believe that i can help someone and help change one's life.
But last thing, WHAT ARE YOU DOING ABOUT IT NOW???

MAKE A WISH, PLACE IT IN YOUR HEART, EVRYTHING U WANT, ANYTHING YOU WANT!!!

The Four Blessed Looks

2008-06-15T13:57:00.002+08:00

I juz received this email from one of my groups from penang. I think its quite good though its talking about God. Everyone has a certain degree of belief in God no matter how someone approach this topic. Either christian, buddhist, or anything.... But this i s a good quote i think...

THE FOUR BLESSED LOOKS
Look back and 'Thank' God.
Look forward and 'Trust' God.
Look around and 'Serve' God.
Look within and 'Find' God!'
'I asked God, 'How do I get the best out of life?' God said, 'Face your past without regrets. Handle your present with confidence. Prepare for the future without fear!''
'Without God, our week is: Mournday, Tearsday, Wasteday, Thirstday, Fightday, Shatterday and Sinday. So, allow Him to be with you every day!'
'Life is short, so forgive quickly. Believe slowly.. Love truly. Laugh uncontrollably. Never regret anything that makes you happy. And have a wonderful journey

PRAYING!!!

2008-06-11T23:21:00.003+08:00

I AM SUPPOSE TO STUDY!!! BUT DISTRACTED!!! OMG!!! I post THREE post in one day!!! Hahahaha.. CRAZY!!!!

So yea.. I know God Heals!! So i am juz hoping God will gives comfort to a friend of mine and let this friend sleep well and be prepared for the CHALLENGES and WORKS that is ahead for the next few days and as well as GOOD HEALTH!! And pray for me, myself and JONATHAN for exams too, corporation law!!!

I think writing out a prayer is really good so you can see what u actually write and not just say it out!

HAVE I CHANGED???

2008-06-11T22:51:00.010+08:00

(2008)-- cake in my mouth!!!

(2007)

(2006)

(2005)
(2004)

(FLOORBALL!!!! MISS THE GAME!!!)

(2003)

(Take a wildest guest of which one am i) - 2002

Suddenly it hit me...
Have i changed?? For better or for worst

I really wonder myself sometimes

In and out of a messy lifestyle with the aim of finding love

Where am i now??

Black, White, or Grey?

And Have i changed?

Physical, Social, Emotional?

In this exact moment,

I DON'T know!!!

Everyday i pray, hoping that God would answer this question,

Who am I?

Am i a person who deserve love and care?

Am i a person who deserve great results?

Am i a person who deserve such a great person like this?

I wonder sometimes...

We often live up to others expectation...

i wonder who i am actually...

Although now i am felling comfortable with this, where i can be myself for once with someone

I just have to be patient and see.. what happens??

HOW MUCH CAN A PERSON CHANGE FOR THE LAST FIVE YEARS????

Mummy in town!!!

2008-06-11T07:35:00.003+08:00

HAVE I CHANGED??!!!!

(hahahaha.. me hugging mua mummy!!!!)

(me, yungs and pui mun)

(me, mom, jacina and kish)... happy 4 or are we missing out someone??!

Past week... Mummy was in town.. It was a good time though there was LOTS n LOTS of nagging. But i mean its mothers.. their main job is to nag their kids i think. hahahahaha
My life has been hectic these few weeks because of exams.. Now am at work. Feeling a bit tired but then no one can take over my shift.. So i have to work and at the same time earn a bit of money for my holidays..!!!
Bought quite a number of stuff when mom was in town.. AND i bought her some stuff too.. since i am quiet stable with my finance. Hhehehee.. Very PROUD of myself. LOLLL
I've had fun with all my friends last saturday at market last week and get to spend time with some of my closes friend. What i like most these is just go out with a few friends.. Have a few drinks and chat. I think i am getting OLD... LOL..
Things has been going great for me other than for my exams... Yet i am thinking a lot of stuff in my mind. Everythin is GREY in colour.. None is Black or WHITE other than my Law paper and yet u can still argue ur way out with law.. ARRRGGHHH
But yea.. Can't wait for holidays!!! 2 more papers to go!!!

can anyone be forgiven??

2008-06-04T12:21:00.005+08:00

Do we hold on to our past?? or should i say do we forgive people easily?? Was watching this movie when i was suppose to study!! But its a good movie callled Boy A. It talks about this kid who was a murderer and was release secretly by the government but the society do not accept him and willing to pay up to 20k to kill him of. So this got me thinking abit, does people ever forgive people for what they did wrong??!!
Lets say christians.. Forgive and Forget. Do we ever do that?? Even just normal people on the road, do we forgive people or do we hold on to our grudges? These are all the causes of fights and all the causes of killings.. Or even so.. why is there discrimination among races or even to homosexuality in this world.
Did we forgive what our parents did to us? or all their scoldings?? Or do we remember one by one what did they scold us on? I know i am a person who keeps everything in my heart. And most of the time i hold grudges, but i know its bad. I think everyone including me should learn how to forgive people.
Family members, friends.. why is there hurt and hatred??
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=C7sxCjQydkA

mummy arrive in town!!!

2008-05-31T01:01:00.002+08:00

eello everyone.. Mummy arriving in town!! SCARYY!!! i am so gonna be grounded at home since my exams are next week!!! But the happy thing is theres durian kuih, tau sar piah, and other stuff that is coming in from penang!!! Mummy bringing in!!! Yippy!!!
Today was such a bad day!!! OMG!!! Juz can't believe it.. I guess everyone seems to be very annoying to me!! But i know why just that i can't mention it i think. I would say i am juz confused right now!! Hopefully everything will be clearer soon!! hahaha.
Anyhow.. Juz came back from Peel.. It was not too bad. But last week was really good!!! Everyone got so drunk!! Especially Wen!!! OMG!! But it was fun when you hav a great group of friends to club with!!
Besides that, was angry because everyone was judging me from the point of their view and not from my side. Everyone thinks that i am such a bad brother who does not take care of the house.. But no one ever think on behalf of me on how i feel living in this house.. :( But i guess this is reality as well!!
Anyway.. Todays blog is a bit random cause i drank quite a bit while typing this blog. Anyway.. Will update soon.. :) Hhahahahaha
Nitez Nitez.. all my darlings.. :)

9 months...

2008-05-17T20:45:00.019+08:00

its been 9 months since i blog.!!! Like wat dave had said. Let see. What happened for the past 9 months. Falling in love, Falling out of love. In relationship, out of relationship, frustrated and not??!! But lets see, friends are always there and getting more and more.
I've been 'dry' for the past 2 months. Is it good? Dun know. Lolz. But yea, lets see whats been happening in my life for past 9 months from last few weeks onwards..

(Party at jasmine's house, my sister's birthday)

Sleep over at my house.. with all the girls..??!!

Dinner at chin chin with the girls...

Clubbing at CQ with all of the girlss...

Another stay over with the girls and this is at mocha jo's

Hhahaa.. porridge night!! Yummy!!!!

Back in malaysia with all my very best friends in penang!!! WOW.. MISS them!!

At MOIS... Upper Penang Road!!!

Charles's and Aaron's Birthday!!!

My sister's graduation.. with yungz, jenna, eric.. and chee giat!!

Paintball at echuca.. tai lou is there as welll!!

St Kilda Beach!!!

My House warming, 2007!!!

Ben's Birthday!!!

Clubbing when lin is in melb!!!

My birthday of course!!

Wow!! SSee,.. my life has been so interesting!! But today.. feel a bit dow. Or for the past few weeks i've been down. But been busy with assignments.!!! Hahahaa..

Will update soon!!!! There you go guys!!!

But tonight is fun!!! Had dinner with yungz, kish, my sis, wendy, pui mun. Made teh tarik, prawn noodle, cekodok, and WINE!!!

Whose behind me??!!

2007-08-09T18:42:00.000+08:00

i guess now i know who are the people tat i should appreciate.. I think when you do so much for all my friends.. you do expect something in return.. But i guess this disappoinment is nothin much in comparison for the past few weeks.. At the same time.. i grew so fat for the past 3 weeks.. to cope with my disappoinment, i juz eat and eat and eat.. and i think i gained few kilos d.. OMG!!! But wat can i do??!!!

I guess this birthday wouldn't be as great as i expected i think.. :) Some people think tat i am dumb and stupid.. even dare to lie to me!!! OMG!!!

I juz had my fried rice today after so long askin for it from my sister.. and now i am over at my sis's place being so hurt and disappointed.. I was happy for the past few days until today!!! haiz!!! So yea.. i hope somethin good will happen for the next few days to turn the table around.. :)

"Love doesn't make the world go round. Love is what maked the ride wothwhile"

2007-07-24T16:14:00.000+08:00

What is love all about? Is it full with energy or with excitement? Neither of them are true under the circumstances that i am in right now.. Loving someone is hard but yet maintaining the feelings of loving someone is even harder. Though people say tat life is not juz about love but i guess love is the one that changes someones day to day life or even enhance your daily life. I guess some says that "true love comes quietly, without banners or flashing lights. If you hear bells, get your ears checked."

I dun care if u dun love me
although i deeply in love with you

i dun care if you dun love me
even how pain i get into it

and i don't care how much tears i produces
as long as i see you OK, don't mind me..

i don't care if you dun care about me and dun like me
as long as i see you safe, i am happy already

i dun care if you love someone else and not me
though my heart is tearing into pieces
i will ignore them all just for you

i don't care if you do not hear me too
though i am saying i love you.

i don't care if you're totally blind of my feelings for you
anyway i still make you feel the warm of me

no matter what people advice me
to change my directions. to avoid seeing you
but i won't follow them

don't mind my heart
though its dying little by little
its OK for me cause my life has no meaning till i found you

i don't care if you juz know me but if you're sad
and want to cry out loud
i'll allow you to use my shoulders to cry on
eventhough i am crying in such pain
i'll be strong just only for you

only you that i love
only my dear that i cherish upon
the one who makes me smile
even for you its just for fun
i'll still love you no matter what

i don't care if you cheat me or on me
even if you blame me in such foolishness i did not do
i'll be your armor to protect you

maybe the way a loved person like you
even for others is like a loving and living hell
i don't care because this foolishness i did is to love you
and i'll be crazy if i don't admit the true feelings i have found in you

i don't care
i really don't care
as long as i love you
tats why i care

don't blame me
cause i am just deeply in love with you

(jon G, 24/7/2007)

Enjoying my holidays!!!

2007-07-10T12:01:00.000+08:00

(shirlaine & alex)

(chocolate brownies 4 sayang)

i've been hanging around the city these few days and been going out a lot with my friends and of course the person tat i like.. :) The thing tat i realize is that life is really unpredictable and it amuses me where things can be affected so much in half a year or even less than tat..!!! But for now, i am happy where things are going well and nothing bad is happening in my life.!!!

OMG.. fish bone is stuck in my throat for almost one day and till now!!!! And u know what fish is tat?!! a bone of an eel!! (the least expected). I thought usually fish bone will juz dissolve after one night but till now i still feel the bone in my throat!! so irritating!! Sayang say i should go to see the doctor, where i refuse juz because of a fish bone!! i think its a small matter i hope.. i guess i wun die with a fish bone kua!!

Anywayz.. i juz baked another brownies tat day.. Took a picture for u guys to see.. hehehe.. and try to make everyone around me to get fat!! hehehe..!! Few more days and uni starts again!! i'm so happy because i got 2 days off. This means that i only have classes on wednesday to friday!! hahaha.. yay!! Besides that, my results is comin in 2 days time!! can't wait to see how good or how bad issit!! hehehe.. Hopefully is good.. :) hehehe...

TAXI!!! so ex!!

2007-07-07T23:51:00.000+08:00

(from left: me, david & scott) scoott looks like a slutt!!!!

( from left: jason, scott, david& wen)

OMG..!!! juz spend another freaking 65 bucks on taxi!!! goin to be broke soon man!!! hahahhaa... I also dun wan to trouble my friend to fetch me back at the same time.. :) At the same time, i was drench in rain!!! so wet.. luckily my blazer was not wet!! and its brand new!! hahaaa..
But at the same time, it always worth my time and money spending time in the city with my friend.. :) Some ppl may say i am stupid.. but i always do it willingly!! hahaha
today.. went out eating with scott and friends over in noccturno ( don't know how to spell.. ) then went over to max brener for my third time in two days!!! OMG.. i am sick of their waffles and hot chocolate.. hahaha... then after tat.. waited for my friend.. then went to supper lor!!!
hahaha... but i think i still din gain much weight!! luckily.. if not no one wants me d.. hahaha
But i guessed i hav changed a lot since i came over to melbourne and stuff.. Basically everyone in penang said i've changed!!

Things seems to be good right now.. :)

2007-06-28T10:44:00.000+08:00

Lets see.. i think time will tell everything..:) for now.. i guessed things are alright now i think.. hopefully.. :) I do feel good right now.. But i'm still making chocolate oatmeal cookies because she likes to eat what i bake.. so yea.. going to bake some cookies soon.. :)

Why do all good things comes to an end??

2007-06-27T23:01:00.000+08:00

Why do all good things comes to an end?? OMG!!! have u heard this song before?? When the day you dun want to hear it.. it will keep playing it on the radio!!! I was in the car for 3 times and these THREE freaking times i hear the same song!! When i want to forget something.. It juz won't let me forget!!! WHY???!!!!
My cheesecake is superbly nice i think!! yay!!! Lets see.. tomorrow's dessert will be chocolate oatmeal cookies..!! hahaha.. i pity my sis.. cause these few days i am in such a bad mood.. no one else dare to touch me... they juz eat and eat watever i do.. :)
I am still waiting for calls!! SHIT!!!! its freaking 1am now!! lolz..

drowning myself in sorrows!!!

2007-06-27T15:06:00.000+08:00

I've been so sad these few days!!!! Have you ever like a person before and of course its a mutual like between each other but then she does not want to start a relationship because she does want to take a risk because she is goin back in 6 months time. But the thing is that she thinks that she is goin back because there is a high change of not getting a permanant residenship over here. So basically can i say i was rejected?? YES!!!! But at the same time, she said that we just know each others habits and stuff but does not know each other really well yet though we have chat like hours and hours long everyday!! imagine tat!! and this is not called commitment!!! i dun get it!!! But then she said that we only met up twice and we should get to know each other well enough.. She does not want to have a relationship and then only start to get to know each other and then finally found out tat we dun suit each other then break up!! She does have a point over there, but when i asked where are we heading, she said she have no answer to tat.. so what does tat mean??!!!

Anywayz.. i've been baking a lot lately so tat i could release my anger on something!! But wait, my cake is not horrible as you guys think ok?? hahaha.. at least is nice but the appearance is not good la of course!! But my sticky date pudding and my flourless chocolate hazelnut cake is one of the best one till now!! hahaha.. But i never knew that baking would take my mind off these things.. Though i did act like a slut for the past few weeks but i still like this girl a lot!!! And ONLY this girl!!

To continue helping myself before i drown myself to death.. i am goin to continue baking and try to make everyone else fat other than myself cause i dun eat my own cake!!! hahahaha... But at least i manage to blog at least one every month!!

good quote!!!

2007-05-21T20:50:00.000+08:00

haha.. i was watchin oprah tat day... and she was talkin with the teachers of the secret.. which i really want to read bout and learn.. and to know what secret is it all about and wat is behind it!!! hhahaa.. see what so secretive bout the secrets that they have..
but i really like one of this quote.. "nothin new can come in unless u appreciate what you already have"... there are a lot of times where we dun even appreciate wat we already have.. our relationship with parents, friends, boy friends or girlfriends.. have we appreciated them tat they should have received?? On top of tat, have we appreciate the lessons and life that we have or are we takin everything for granted?? A lot of ppl juz take things for granted and think tat things will b settled as time pass by...
giv me some feedback.. hahahaha.. if u agree with me.. :)

tired!!! and fake birthday party

2007-05-21T20:40:00.000+08:00

ello everyone.. its been a while since i blog and i mean a long long while.. hahahah.. so tired these days..!!! juz got back my assignments and not really happy bout it.. Lets see.. i've been goin out partying a lot lately and spend quite a bit of money.. hahaha..
I juz had a fake birthday party last sunday.. haha.. so funny.. me, jeannie, wendy, my sis, narvin and nancy went out for dinner over at kota raya (wat i weird name).. after dinner the manager ask us whether do we want dessert.. then usually i will order and as usual i did.. i ordered sago pudding.. And right immediately the manager left the table, jeannie shouted tat is his birthday and the truth is tat is not mine.. But the manager believed her and u know what happened?? he put on happy birthday song throughout the whole restaurant and i was so amberass.. But out of it.. i got a free ice cream.. hahaha...
Exams is comin!!! hav to study..!!! haiz.. study hard ppl.. and i can't wait for my dad to come in and show him my shopping list.. hahah!!!

Happy Easter!!!!

2007-04-12T09:05:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BELATED EASTER EVERYONE!!!!! Its been really long since i blog and probably a lot of people must be wondering what happen to me in melbourne.. hahaha.. But life here has been fun and exciting. I've been doin quite a number of shopping for the past weeks and now i am BROKE.. hahaha.. Anywayz i went to torquay during the easter weekend with jasmine&partner, maggie&partner, su lyn, lilz, jasmine's bro, me&my sis.. hahaha.. so there were totally nine of us and we had hell of fun during that weekend and lots of laughter and lots of sleeping.. :)
Besides that, 3 weeks ago i think was jeannie woo's birthday and it was st. peter's day so we were all dressed in GREEN and we all went out for dinner and went for clubbing and all of us weere superbly high and dance till we were drench in sweat!!! My sis was like saying i'm a Bitch when i'm high.. and she elbowed someone in the club but obviously that guy din know that a girl will have such strong arms.. and obviously he is mostly right but when he meet people like my sis.. its his bad luck then cause my sis is really strong and probably i'll lose to my sis as well.. hahhahhhaha
Anywayz i was juz watching a movie before i started blogging and i find this phrase interesting.. "No matter how far we travel on how far friends travel on seperate path, we will somehow get back together".. let me add in something.. hahaha.. its my turn "And no matter hows someones attitude, friends will still accept them"
Thats all!!!!! will update another one soon...
P/S: photos cannot be uploaded!!!! will upload them soon!!!

My first PAY..!!!! and ECSS camp

2007-03-10T09:38:00.000+08:00

(han, me and steph!!)

(me and leah i think!! haha)

(chris, me cassie and monica)

(monica, chris, cassie,george and sharon)

(me, chris and annie at the beach during camp..)

hahhaah..how do i look in all the pictures??!!! thinner or not.. hahahha...there are more photos but dun want to upload them all cause i am so lazy to do so... ahaha its been a while since i update my blog again.. hehehe... But i got my proper first pay in my life.. hahaha.. i received 155 aud for 16 hours of work.. i know its a bit low because i was a trainee and now i am not.. hhaha.. so pretty much will earn more..!!! Life has been quite interesting over here and got to meet a few new friends and i went for a camp and it was an ECSS camp (Economics comeerce student society) the other day and it was fun..
But camp here is not the same as in any malaysia camp.. camp here is like nothin but drinking. 24/7 people here are always drunk and everyday there is some drinking game to make some ppl vomit and stuff.. But it was fun to look at what they do when they are drunk. hahaha....
As i said, uni has started and assignments are coming in and going to have a writing task this monday and hopefullly everything goes well and i have to start studying soon.,... oh ya.. amazing news.. i LOST TWO AND A HALF KILOS.. since i came in.. i only eat one meal a day.. hahaha.. but i lose to yung quan.. how can!!! he lost FOUR kilos already.. but my theory was he is fatter so he lose weight faster.. hahahaha

first few days of uni...

2007-02-28T17:48:00.000+08:00

hehehe.. its been a week since i update my blog but life here has been quite fun and interesting and believe or not.. I SURVIVE WORKING and i did not faint linsey.. hahah..but one thing i hate is a manager.. one stupid freaking manager.. he is one of the boss's boy friend.. so he thik he super besar like tat.. worked me till like crappy shit and dun have feelings for people.. hope he break up with the boss soon.. so i won't have to see his face.. hahahaa... i've met a few new friends over here and its quite nice talking to them and i am going for a camp this friday in a jungle next to a beach.. hehehe.. but when i told steven, he says that i am going to grumble about the place and stuff and the place being dirty.. and I HAVE TO SLEEP IN A TENT.. hahahhaa.. But i think its goin to be a hell lots of fun.. so will let u all know.. but people here drink like crazy but u know.. i am a very good boy.. so i won't follow them.. lolz.. hahaha
Today i cook instant noodle for dinner and i think i hav lost weight.. yay!! i am so happy.. i had statrted this policy where only one meal a day.. hahahah.. so basically i had nothing for lunch and had instant noodle and ice cream for dinner...
First week of uni is not too bad.. but there are few tutors which is quite funny.. one of my accounting teacher who is a chinese.. read my name from jonathan to jonhson.. or something like tat.. so i was like eerrmmm.. who is tat..?? hahaha.. then my econs tutor was like.. i like phone ringing in my class.. weird right..?? hhahaha.. but its all good..
Yesterday went out movie with jeannie and her sis and my sis.. hahaha.. imagine her sis and my sis are friends.. i can't believe it.. i was so shock when i found out.. hahaha...

TIRED!!!!

2007-02-21T18:39:00.000+08:00

hahaha.. its been a while since i blog.. and linsey of course bugging me to blog and let u all know wat i hav been up to.. hahaha.. juz came back home and cooked the FIRST meal ever since i arrived in australia.. cooked for me and wae lern, he came over to my house cause we went out with jia ren in the afternoon.. and i walked till my legs are so freaking tired.. probably today is the longest distance i hav actually walked.. but cannot compared to JIAREN right..?? sheeshh!!!! walked for 45 minutes.. but i think i walked more than tat.. haiz...
but yesterday i was down with fever and stuff and some headache but din want to bother anyone.. so juz rest at night.. and sweat it out.. probably its because yesterday i got lost in the campus.. imagine tat.. hahaha.. and i walked like for freaking 1 hour under the sun.. and when i came back.. i was all dizzy.. haiz.. hehehe
heheh.. today went to smith street again.. but din get anythin of course.. no money liao.. hahhahaa... So how is everyones chinese new year been..?? anythin interesting.??
My chinese new year was a bit bored.. had a dinner over at my sis's house cuase eric they all did steamboat.. and it wass good.. and then i went down to city for some drinks.. hehehe
TOMORROW is orientation.. so expectation something doos coming out from it.. HOPEFULLY. hahhaha.. then pretty much go back home..
HHAHA.. u know wat..?? i am goin to WORK soon!!! probably starting this friday.. ehehe everyone tat knows me says tat i can't last for more than a month.. even worst some says more than a week.. haiz.. but i guessed i am going to proved everyone wrong.. hahaha.. anyone wants to bet..?? heheh.. let me know ya.. lolz.. :P

greetings from melbourne.. hehehe

2007-02-12T16:20:00.000+08:00

(thanks guys for sending me at the airport... luv ya.. )

(hahah.. the first meal i hav in melbourne.. yummy!!)

hahaha.. been lazing around in melbourne and went to do quite a bit of shopping.. hehehe... yea thanks guys for sending me off at the airport... hehe.. miss u guys a lot. Life here is good but my house is a bit dirty. Unlike wat my sister has said bout how clean is the house.. its all crap!! hahahaha.. Actually from the first look, the house seems pretty good, but when u go in to the kitchen, its a bit dirty and my landlord is from china, so imagine for urself how clean would it be.. hehehe

todays weather is super hot.. it is not as humid as malaysia but u can feel the sun is burning ur hand.. hahaha.. but went to some factory outlets over at smith street and there were sales as well.. hehe so bought a pair of nike shoes and billabong shorts and one ripcurl t-shirt.. i dun wan to write how much i spend cause according to my sister.. my mom reads my blog.. so u know.. hahahah.. :P

so yea.. life here is pretty fine.. At the second pic, my sister and some of her friends baked some pizza on friday night and they baked like 10 pizzas and only 6 of us eating and i am the only guy.. but we did quite a good job, we left 2 pizzas and then ate it the next day again.. haiz.. but now i am on a diet mode.. 1 meal a day.. hahaha.. tats it for now..update u guys soon.. :)

2007-01-30T02:58:00.000+08:00

(Yummy.. yum yum.. eric finishing one of his five McEGGS.. lolz.. )

Guess wat is this?? of course it the the mcdonald's famous MCEGG.. lolz.. during thursday night after sarah's party, i met up with my usual friends which is eric, linsey, and yung quan. Yung quan told us he bet with one of his colleague tat his colleague could finish 10 Mceggs and of course i dun believe it as well. But eric added tat he himself could finish 5, why can't yung quan's colleague finish 10 as his size is even bigger than eric's one. LOL. So me and yung quan made a bet if eric could finish this 5 Mceggs, we'll giv him a treat a the new G Hotel.
Eventually when we met up on friday, and believe it or not..eric manage to finish all 5 Mceggs, AMAZING!!! lolz..

sarah khor's birthday..!!!!

2007-01-30T02:27:00.000+08:00

Its been a while since i blog and life has been great these few days but i bit tired. At the same time i juz came back from KL with my parents and eric and leon.
hahaha.. it was sarah's birthday.. and think of it.. it was juz few weeks ago tat i celebrated her 18th birthday and i purposely came back from KL juz to celebrate her birthday with her. But then this time round, her birthday is like one of the farewells before all of us leave for our respective unis to continue our studies.
We had the dinner over at Solid Rock and the food was not too bad but i was very full and so i did not manage to finish my food.. hehe.. but then the dinner was great and had a great time catching up with a few people.

Lol...

2007-01-24T01:38:00.000+08:00

hahaa.. i took this from my friend's friendster.. its so cute and funny.. As far as i know, guys always wonder wats the use of a bra, other than helping girls to support their boobs.. lolz.. Now we know tat we can use it as a mask too.. lolz..

hehe.. i am going down to KL this friday with eric and leon and meeting up with dorothy and chee giat hopefully and as well as pui mun and way yee.. hehe.. been going out a lot lately and been eating a lot of food. Haiz.. This is because quite a number of friends came down from KL and brought them out to eat and as usual i dun hav control of myself so i've been eating and eating and eating.

So yea.. 2 more weeks be4 i go over to australia and today i juz went out with willy they all for a dinner and it was great. Haiz. hav to wait for another year before we get to spend time together and hav dinner.!!!

Whatever i need in australia has already been done and juz left a few stuff to send over but then there is juz one thing to settle before i go to australia but dun know whether i should settle it or just leave it at where it is now. haiz.. sad case la this one.. hehe

Best friends till the end!!!

2007-01-15T23:49:00.000+08:00

This is in the year 2006
(from left: yheu shen, jamie, jia ren, me, jenna 'harberd' )

This is in the year 2007
(from left: jamie, me, jenna, sarah and jia ren)

Of course the first thing u notice is me.. i hav the biggest change right..?? lolz.. haha.. a bit thick face.. lolz.. :P But the friendship between all 5 of us still remains and i really appreciate all of them.. we'll be leavin in less than a month and probably only me and jia ren goin to leave to australia and sarah will be joining us.. :) hehe... (haha.. hav to jaga ur hubby.. lolz.. :P) But look at us.. each and everyone of us has grown mature and chosen each and every path for ourself but we hav one thing in common which is we are united in christ and tat is where we are goin to stand firm in!!!

Did not do much today.. juz lazing around.. went out for lunch with jia ren and sarah.. dinner also with the same people except jenna came along this time.. (at last jenna went out wif us.. ) At the same time, i manage to finish my whole season 1 of prison break.. at last i got hold of it and i manage to finish it within one day.. lolz..!! haha... and today stayed at home at night cause all of us lazy to go out.. kuai leh..?? :P hehe..

parties and parties... and parties....

2007-01-14T14:26:00.000+08:00

hehe.. been partying and enjoying my life while i can.. hehe... 3 more weeks before i go to australia.. but my visa and medical not yet been done.. haiz.. but since i came back to penang.. i put on 4 kgs i think.. and i din do much sports or gym but it was fun and had a party over my house yesterday wif my sis and her friends.. I did my carbonara as usual for everyone cause it was the easiet compared to lasagna.. hehe.. but everyone missed my lasagna.. hehe.. linsey missed the fun yesterday and after tat we went over to babylon and enjoy the breeze.. :) But eric PPK us lor.. haiz.. kiam ak nui arr!!!! but i hope ur grandpa will be fine soon k.. (cheers.. :) )

Besides tat, i've been packing my clothes to be send over to australia by sea mail.. And can u imagine tat the weight of one box of clothes is 25 kgs and tat is probably only less than half of the things tat i need to send over there.. lolz.. hehe.. and i got my desktop and shoes and stuff to be sent over there... but tat will all be done by MAS CARGO.. so should b faster.. hehe..

Just came back from church and lunch and goin off to sleep soon cause din hav enough sleep yesterday.. and will be havin steamboat at my house tonight as me and my sis leavin before chinese new year so my dad wants to eat like reunion dinner or somethin like tat before all of us leave.. haiz.. probably i'll miss penang.. and probably i want to leave penang as well.. :)
Off to sleep now.. hehe..

KL.. 2 days..

2007-01-08T22:36:00.001+08:00

Came back to KL for two days.. goin off tomorrow.. today went to college and help out for the new batch of MUFY students 2007.. they are a bit blur la unlike us so smart.. lolz.. haha. But luckily we went in last year.. you know wat? This year every class is one and half hours long and only 5 class a day.. tat means u hav no choice but to take every slot each day and also no lunch break wan.. hehe.. so cham hor..?? i also dun know how the students goin to hav their lunch.. hahaa.. nevermind go on diet!!!
i miss my hanging out today with kiam ah nui and bang kuang (bang kuang brown colour wan right??) they all.. haiz.. miss out the fun yesterday and today.. so sad!!! but then.. hehe went out with some old friends to one u and bought some clothes and shorts.. (yippie!!!!) and then we went for lunch at fish and co and after tat went to watch sinking of japan. Not too bad a movie.. can't imagine if it really happens to japan.. i wonder what will the world be like.. hehe.. and all of our electronical stuff are from them.. hehe..
Then went to meet up with rossane and yun in starbucks and collected 4 stickers for our collection for our 4th diary from starbucks.. imagine for the past less than one month we drank more than 54 cups of starbucks coffee.. lolz.. no wonder i cannot lose weight.. haiz.. but after one month.. no more all these fun things to do d.. goin to aus in exactly one months time.. feb 8 is my last day in malaysia.. you people better send me off to the airport.. lolz.. (kidding.. dun wan to let u all see i cry.. :P)
so yea.. will miss all of u guys in KL a lot.. dunno whether can come back on saturday for our last dinner.. lolz.. will try very hard.. hehe...
Now i am sitting at home doin nothing but downloadin movies to bring back to penang to watch.. hehe.. so hope can finish downloading then happy d lor.. hehe.. tats for now.. hehe.. take care people..

new resolution of 2007!!

2007-01-04T01:00:00.000+08:00

In the whole of 2006, its been an amazing year for me.. and the new year eve was fun.. got to see some stupid stuff happening.. haha.. Thanks people for making 2006 a memorable one for me..

Things that i've learn/changes in 2006:
1. Don't trust people too much.. (lolz.. seems like i never learn..)
2. Learn how to keep the house clean by myself..
3. Got closer to God and grew in God
4. Knowing tat God is my refuge and strength
5. Got closer to some friends
6. Know how to handle my own money (Though its quite tough.. hehe no more refills)
7. Of course bought my airmax 2006 and ipod nano and oakley sunglasses

New Resolutions for 2007:
1. Be more independant when i go over to australia
2. Start working (Need to earn more money.. lolz. )
3. Read more of the word and spend time more with God
4. Try to get closer to some friends
5. Learn how to cook more.. (Though i am good in cooking d.. :P)
6. Spend less time on shopping and save up for rainy days
7. Lose weight!!! ( A must do thing)
8. Get more close to parents.. they do see some diff in me.. Yeah!!
9. Pass every exams in uni.. hehe..
10. etc... hehe..

2006!!

2007-01-02T22:30:00.000+08:00

haha.. its already 2007 and now i am goin to summarize my whole 2006 cause i juz got my free time now.. :) i went to KL and studied MUFY in sunway college.. For the people who do not know what is MUFY, it is Monash Uni Foundation Year. My life has been interesting these whole year and i did enjoyed myself to a certain extend in KL and met a few good friends along the course and i did build a good friendship in KL.
lets see.. in the beginning of 2006.. i went to KL to search for better education (lolz. ) and meet more friends and indeed i did meet a lot of people and a lot of indonesians.. hehe.. Started attending FGT and meet a few people there and my spiritual life did grow and learn some stuff from that church. For a while, it was quite hard for me to accept tat there is so much things tat can happen in church!! After a while, we have our own clicks and we do hangout almost everyday and go out for lunch and movies.. and we did come out with a club which is called the WBC.. guess wat is that? It is the Wednesday Breakfast Club.. lolz. cool right??

At the middle of the year, i was busy studying but i did had some arguements with friends and probably some misunderstandings.. but from there i did learn some experience on how to handle friends and be independant.. And imagine that, Jon G working at bubble tea and make bubble tea for people.. who will ever imagine that jon G is goin to work.. and i did earn my first pay which is 21 bucks.. hehe.. and always get free drinks.. :) And my birthday came along and went out dinner with friends and celebrate with them. And they gave me a suprise cake without me expecting for one.. hehe. And before that i went out with steven, temme and JC to Chili's and they sang me a birthday song in front of so many people and i did get a bit emberass but it was a great time with all my friends.

Then all things went smoothly after tat.. there were not much arguements and probably a bit of arguements with a good friend but all of us are in good terms and the people that i argued with before that was all back to normal and it was a good time during the last few months in sunway college. And MUFY did organize a sharity day and Talent Quest and i did enjoy myself playing around with people.. hehe.. Then trial exams came along and all of us were busy preparing for it and for a few nights i din sleep well and everyday juz go on coffee so tat i could finish all the things tat i need to study. My results wasn't tat great because i was not prepared but not too bad.. Then after tat busy preparing for finals and at that time i was more relax cause probably i feel more confident cause i just need to read back some stuff tat i missed out before tat. Then after finals went out with friends and enjoy my last few times in KL. Then came back to penang and everyday went out with friends especially jia ren and sarah.. and then went for camps and for the past few weeks i hav been hanging around with my sister and her friends like kiam ah nui and bang kuang.. lolz. And it was fun indeed.. everyday go to starbucks or kassim mustafa.. hehe.. and christmas came and i was doing flag and got all my christmas presents.. and got my external HDD and a new digital cam from my mom.. hehe.. and new year eve came.. hehe.. and basically tat is my whole year.. and there are more things in between but its ok.. :)

My life back in KL.. lolz.. sounds so serious..

2006-12-16T03:10:00.000+08:00

hehe.. anyhow.. its 3am right now and i juz got back home from KL and i am quite tired.. but i juz want to blog before i forget everything by the morning.. lolz.. anyhow i enjoyed my stay back in KL and had a good time meeting up with all of my MUFY friends during the graduation dinner.. and guys so sorry tat i can't follow you all out for drinks.. hehe went to watch eragon.. :P but its a fun time..

Its been a nice time out from penang and all the people and go there for shoppings.. and do some christmas shopping for people with my brother.. lolz.. but along the course.. i realize tat guys are actually a bit dumb when they are falling in love.. lolz.. so sorry to all the guys but seems like it is true.. (people who read this.. come share with me.. lolz).. They'll always try to make themselves believe tat things are all right but at the same time they know tat it is not and they still believe theres always a good reason behind all the bad things.. (i'm a bit sleepy.. bad english.. lolz)

Anyhow i am also quite tired of chasing after people and trying to be there for them.. but sometimes we juz hav to stand there and let them take the hard way and let them learn for themselves.. but its juz hard for me to let go of stuff.. but like wat people says.. give people a chance to prove you wrong of wat u are thinking.. so i guessed its time for me to start giving people a chance and also myself.. and i hope wat i am doing is right.. lolz.. Nite people.. oink oink..

bad day man....

2006-12-12T02:09:00.000+08:00

haiz.. at last today i came to terms.. lol... sounds like english.. and talked to my mom and said everythin tat was in me and all this while why was i not close to the family and also why did i always juz come to the family juz bcos of the family.. but i'm cool now.. and i hope that i am able to give a chance for everyone and juz have an intimate relationship with each and every person in the family and i thank God for them actually to provide me financially, its juz tat it was hard time for me to connect to them.. so i really pray for God to help me through this and tat i am able to be there... haiz...
besides that, i blew up in queensbay mall.. it was such a bad day man.. the more i want things to worked out, the more it won't and sometimes like wat my friend say.. the more u want things to worked out.. the more u will do everythin to make sure things to worked out and you will do however things to make sure tat wat u wan can be achieved.. but i guessed i juz hav to let things go..
i am so sorry to my friend.. really sorry.. like wat i said.. i really want things to worked out... but it juz my feelings... i do trust now.. and i really hope tat things will worked out and go back to the same like last year... i dun know la actually... people around me is almost killing me and influencing wats in my mind.. and now.. the only person i can really trust is my best friend here... and hope things will be fine though there were some changes... lolz.. God take control!!!

youth camp and all other happenings....

2006-12-09T16:58:00.000+08:00

Youth CAMP 2006 was a blast for everyone who went there.. and God was really ministering to the youth there and i am thankful for God to be there.. I agree that God has a plan for each and everyone of us and when i got my results tat day, i was really upset and disappointed of myself cause i expected myself to score higher rather than gettin wat i got... and was really upset and i was suppose to worship lead the next day and i was really praying hard for the joy of the Lord to fill me so tat i would be able to show it to the people.. cause the real joy is when you smile because of no reason but thankful for God...
But there are ups and downs in life... i really came to my senses that the reason why i came back is to really apologize to some people and get things right with them..but i guessed things had gone worst.. and i juz feel that staying in Kl is so much better.. though i always stay at home and juz do nothin.. at least i dun feel as bad as being in Penang.. Penang ppl really disappointed me.. and i thought tat they were my best friends... juz feel like packin my stuff and juz go back to KL..
People will always disappoint you no matter at wat age.. who they are.. but lying to people is the worst thing tat a person can do.. and i am just flabergasted.. and i juz dun wan things to go back like last year.. i dun wan to go in to the operating room again... i am sick of medicine till now... i really feel like disappearing from this earth man..

wat lies ahead of me!!!!

2006-11-08T02:06:00.000+08:00

its been a while since i blog cause there were nothing significant things tat i wanted to tell ppl and after all everythin was smooth sailing for quite some time.. until today when i started thinking of where i wan to go next and what i wanted to study!!!

the reason i came to KL is also avoid.. and the reason i wan to leave KL is also KL is not really a memorable place for me.. life was not tat great as i expected but one thing tat i hav here.. is tat i hav build gd friendships with some people here though it was tough at first.. and i appreciate everyone who is around me and friends over at KL.. and eventually i try to forget wat had happen in the past and accept it.. (sounds like theme study.. :P) everythin was nice for the past 2 months with all my friends and life was GD!!!

but today!! i was so sien and tired bout uni.. and some issues about some ppl askin me to stay down over in malaysia.. and bla bla... and i was not tat happy bout it... i really wan to go overseas.. and for me.. i dun even hav any problems of goin (as some of u all know me and stuff right??) as if like i cannot afford.. but my mom was like necking all the way.. and askin me to stay down!!!

i was really thinking.. if they are willing to waste like so much money on my sis and she failed so many papers.. and some more in monash aus..!! why dun they give me this freedom and move on!!! after all my sis went straight after form 5 and i was asked to stay in KL and study because so called i was not mature enough to handle the life in australia last year!!!

TRUE!! i get a lot of allowance when i stay in KL.. but i am not satisfied.. it might be my fault as i like to compare with my sis... but i dun see a point of me staying down.. and havin my allowance to be higher again compared to this year.. and gettting a new car for myself.. or gettin watever i wan... though money is important to me.. but not as important as a thing to pull me back to study here.. i really dunno.. and my dad was like saying.. if u get in to melbourne uni.. then i'll let you go next year.. if not stay another year and bla bla..!!and my dad was like immediately took out his credit card and made payment to uni for my application and dun wan to let me apply for other uni like UNSW!!! i wan to go sydney!!! ( u all know why.. lolz.. ) i was so piss off it everyone of them!!! and for my mum.. she still keep sayin.. she was to see me to be more independant and more mature and bla bla... so tired of all this...

but i also wan to leave also because i hav had enough with some of the KL ppl here... not any of my college friends.. but i guessed if u all know me well enough.. u know wat i mean.. :) so hopefully everythin will be settled soon enough...

who do u consider ur family...??

2006-07-30T20:47:00.000+08:00

who do u consider ur family members...?? yesterday i went to an orphanage and there were 20 kids there.. and when i was talkin to one of the clerk around there.. i found out that some of kids do know who are their parents and some of their parents juz leave them there cause they cannot take care of them or some of them were abuse by their parents and there were 2 of them who dun hav any people in this world and some more.. whenever the parents want to see them.. only they'll come and visit them...i felt so sorry for the kids.. as for me.. i do not need to go through all these.. cause i know that i won't be as tough as they are to go through these life.. as i see all of them.. i realise how lucky and fortunate that i hav a family..
but yet.. let me tell u these.. to all these kids.. to them family are people who care about them and live under the same roof together with all the kids.. people like me hav everythin that i want and i hav learn to be contented with what i hav.. what i hav i could get it.. handphones.. dvd player.. play station, my own car.. etc... but to these children i guess they hav to earn every single thing with their bare hands.. and i know that they will be able to grow up as strog young men and women.. i pray that they will always be blessed..
This moral project hav taught me somethin.. and is it not as bad as it seem at first cause i hav lots of fun there.. :)

life is unpredictable...

2006-07-23T22:25:00.000+08:00

life is so unpredictable.. i mean who knows when are they goin to die... yesterday i heard that one of my friend in school was killed in an accident.. and he is only 18 years old.. can u juz imagine a lorry goin over ur body and at that moment what will u be thinking.. what a shocking thing that can happen.. death is just right at our foor and no one knows when is it goin to step right across the door.
Life can be so short and can we say up to this point, we hav achieve our purpose and goals that we hav set for our life or can we say we hav live up to the expectation of christ. each individual hav their own goals in life.
Can u juz imagine that we argue with that person on one day and the next day the next thing u knew is that he is dead.. what will u feel.?? do u feel sorry because u are not able to sort things out with him or do u feel that u should not hav argued at all??
all i wan to say is that i rather not argue with people and juz be happy with the people u hav around u and juz be blessed by their presence...

priorities in life....

2006-07-17T21:02:00.000+08:00

before i say anythin... i juz wan to thank u all for all the comments... but please dun get into an arguement because of me ya.. i guessed i do accept wat everyone says.. but i guessed how we react to different situation depends on our own life and the experience that we had.. when u had a bad experience towards somethin.. u would build a defense wall to protect urself from experiencing the same bad feeling tat u had before.. so how would someone know what u had experience before without them knowing u that well right?
anyway.. i was juz thinking bout this question.. what are our priorities in life? God, family, friends or even studies? i came to a point where i was so lost and dun even know from where to start from.. church? people? dun know lorr...
but when i came to realise what i hav been trying to do is to satisfy man and not God.. and its hard to satisfy man cause they will never be content with whatever you are doin.. even friends or parents hav certain level of expectations from you.. and if u were to try to do everythin.. u'll probably be dead before even reachin the goals that were set for you..
when people ask me.. i thought a christian's life is so easy and juz study and get good grades and go to church.. i was like.. NOPE... not to discourage them from being a christian or even accepting God.. but to be a christian u need to live by God and with God and sometimes may be hard cause there are a lot of distractions and circumstances in lives that draw ur attention.. but i guessed priorities play an important role.. u wan to put God first or not...
i've learn that when God is placed first before anythin.. everythin will juz fall into place.. so people.. being a christian is not easy.. but the reward of being a faithful christian and obey God is much more than u can ever imagine..God's reward is not on earth but its in heaven.. :)

is girl friend the most important thing in life?

2006-07-04T22:16:00.000+08:00

I think for all the guys that i've known, i've realise that to them girl friend is so important than any other thing.. but do they realise that friends do overides everything... Since i came to sunway college, i've seen many things with my own eyes and everythin that had happen through the six months.. some relationship started.. some has broken.. or even friendships...
What is a girl friend or a boy friend to a guy or a girl? is this the most important thing in life? I've come to realise that people in sunway college that u can say more than half of the college students dun even have a friend that they can call BEST FRIEND.. all they want from u is benefits that u can give..
This subject came into my mind when yesterday i went bah kut teh with my best friend.. this topic came into our conversation... what will happen to our friendship when each of us have our own partner.. especially my friend... cause she/he is so famous.. lolz.. and we were talking bout this.. and he came out with out of 100 people, probably only 10 will have a true best friend.
And we were saying is friend more important or gf or bf more important.. i hav seen people after havin gf.. they dun even give a damn to their friend...
What i can say bout best friend.. is that hav u ever thought that though u never speak for a few years.. or even din even talk..when u need help.. they will always be there for u.. hav u ever come to this place in ur life that u are sure that u will hav this friends that can support u anytime u need and won't run away when u are in bad times?
And sice i came to KL.. i hav found myself being sucked into friendships that is true... and shown love and care when i need it.. though there are a lot of misunderstandin.. we still can carry it through.. and to me this friendship is true friendship.. and a friendship that u are willing to sacrifice anythin to protect it...
Friends.. what are friends??? ask urself this question....

funny....

2006-06-21T22:39:00.001+08:00

today... juz came back from dinner.. haha.. as usual... but today.. when i came back i went rushing to the toilet cause need to pee.. but after peeing.. guess wat happen...??
i can juz see my keys falling from my hand and went in to the toilet bowl.. haha.. so blur case.. but yet.. its my house keys.. so wat to do.. i hav to put my hand into the bowl and get it out.. by with the aid of a plastic bag.. haha...
so dirty.....
today was not a bad day.. and i got back my research paper and i'm so happy with the results she gave me.. thanks joanna for helping me to correct my launguage error... owe u one...
anyway.. juz nice to be as usual... but yet theres still things happening around..
Draw strength from the river of God and everythin should be fine...
and also.. seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness and all others will be added unto you..

questions....

2006-06-20T21:23:00.000+08:00

Questions.....

Days, months have i tried to be happy,
Somehow try and try but i'll still be in worry,
Things happens and make myself feel lousy,
why can't things just go smoothly?

Am i a person that can be trusted,
or am i a person who is a failure,
Even best friend try to hide things,
and make me feel that i'm a useless freak.

If friends juz walked away,
what can i say?
all i can do is juz wonder
whats'the next thing that can happen the next day.

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Today at least can release some stress.... got to play squash with jien.. thanks so much jien.. at last sports can make me feel more stress free.. or is one way to release my stress...
Hope i'll soon find a way out of this problems...

live life to the fulless....

2006-06-19T23:30:00.000+08:00

let me put it this way, have u ever come to a place in ur life that u really need someone juz to be there for u and nothing else..
today was not a good day for me.. as i was standing in front of my friend, my friend found out that i have a bone came out from my shoulder.. and i din realise it cause they were no pain at all.. i was damn freak out at that time...
but i guessed when this kind of things happen to me.. often enough no one cares at all i guessed cause everyone will say its nothin and dun worry.. and like wat i understand that a person who always give advice needs some support in times of need.. but people dun see this as important thing... why do people have to be so selfish and self centered? even the person who say care bout me so much dun even give a damn cause he says is nothin wan... and he dun even bother..
so why do i hav to bother bout people's business so much and care for people because when i need help.. they are not there..
AM I SUCH A BAD PERSON? i know i am sombong sometimes cause since i came to KL and through so much experience, i've learn to isolate myself.. and dun even give a damn to anyone.. haiz...

life is juz another routine

2006-06-18T23:58:00.000+08:00

life.. what do people conclude about their own life? No one knows what they want in their life.. all they wish for is to do well in their studies and also satisfy what their parents wants.. actually when i come to notice, no one has their own purpose of life? what do they wish before they die and u never know when u are goin to die. Probably tomorrow or probably in a minutes time.. no one knows right?
In life, what have i learn? i have learn that people can treat u as though u are an angel of God but u never know what they want... i have overcome the fact that most of the people on this earth treat u good just for a purpose.. who knows right what do they want from u? and the fact that God is the only you can look for in the times of need or even anytime HE will be there for u.
Even when u think he or she might be one the good friends that u can rarely find, never the less you soon will find out what the main motive of them treating u nice. i have been livin in denial that people can be nice juz because they just wan ur presence and even u dun talk, they are satisfy enough when u are juz there for them... i guessed none of these person exist in this world anymore..
people.. i guessed everyone of us juz hav to rethink of what we do everyday... and for now think whether what i say make sense to most of u?

test and test.... haiz...

2006-05-23T00:15:00.000+08:00

its been a while since i blog.. think probably one week d.. haiz.. test hav been goin on.. and everyone seem to be so busy.. but i know one college drop out who is so free.. cause as what his name is college drop out.. of course la free right..?? :P
today maths test was hard.. but the question was easy... but dumb ppl like me dun know how to answer wan.. haiz.. wat to do... hopefully wednesday accounts would be easy.. but the stupid teacher force some of us to sit in front.. dumb right..??
yeah...!! in few days time i'll be goin back to PENANG... yea yea... jon jon is comin back to town.. kiddo is baCK..!!!
but i think i'll be busy wif church stuff anyway.. haha...
study and study..
ALL the best everyone...

syndrome invading the world.. haha.. :P

2006-05-10T21:44:00.000+08:00

haha... syndrome invading the world.. so much of saying me as syndrome... hey penang knights.. my syndrome name came back thanks to temme and oon ee... haiz.. jason muz be so happy.. cause my anme came from him.. and temme.. and the whole inti gang.. haiz...

test and test....

2006-05-10T21:31:00.000+08:00

haiz... test and test... today juz finish my maths test... and there are 2 more test to come.. which is econs and accounts.. so sad for the maths B students.. haha.. they hav exam tomorrow...
haha.. i din know girls also can have eye infections.. u know what guys hav when they see to much porn.. the story about eye infection...
my friend today kena.. we shoot her like no body's business... her eye was really red and we said she watch to many guys being naked.. lolz..
wah.. today i am so happy cause i get to eat lots of sotong.. my favourite.. and i kena marah from my friend cause hav to jaga my own health.. but it was my favourite food.. i bet my penang friends.. sure wan to scold me d.. sorry jia ren and sarah.. dun be mad.. ;)
tomorrow i hav to go to gym ... haha.. grown fatter this month.. eat and eat.. thanks to ryan..
haiz.. tomorrow go on fruit diet.. yeah...!!!!!
HOPE TOMORROW WILL BE A BETTER DAY THEN TODAY...

jonG

what i wish for.....

2006-05-08T21:09:00.000+08:00

today was not too bad a day.. got to spend some time with friends.. and also found out some stuff.. hehe.. and my mum told me that my cousins are coming out this friday and she ask me to go back to penang.. and my cousins are damn hot.. not like me.. hehe.. and they are all girls.. i guess wae lern will sure wan to see how they look like.. :P
but i guess every guy has their weaknesses.. and when guys fall in love with girls.. i think is pretty hard to control.. like my feelings right now.. haiz...
i guess.. it will take time.. hehe.. anyway.. i am not such a good drinker... juz tat wae lern don;t know how to drink.. lolz..
anyway.. hope that ms.susila. won;t burst in class tomorrow.. if not i'll hate her so much.. stupid teacher... and mr.latiff is goin off soon.. sad la.. he is such a good teacher...tats all for today.. hehe..

jonjon

first BLOG.....

2006-05-07T22:27:00.000+08:00

hello people.. this is my real first blog of the day and of the year and of the month.. and probably my life.. hehe.. i took a effort to start writting.. hehe.. this is pretty cool arrr. Nothin really happen today.. but this is one of the few times i ate MAGGI MEE. Somethin which i seldom like to do.. i was so happy yesterday get to go and see some ms. malaysia finalist thing at friendster cafe. which is pretty cool.. a lot of cool girls.. lolz..
AND you know wat.. one of the finalist and also MS POPULARITY is from MONASH U.. cool right..?? so chun man.. so sorry for the people who miss out this great opportunity to meet with people.. lolz.. :P
anyway.. juz say thanks to you all who take time to come and read my blog and i hope it will entertain you and let u know more about me.. hehe.. :D