NO TITLE - 1st random post of 2010

Here am i sitting here in front of my computer after one year thinking what have i actually achieved within this year? Other than feeling burnt out, i would say i have achieved nothing for this year other than trying my best to please people around me. One year ago, my aim was to make people around me happy, maybe i have manage to achieve it but at the same time i think i've hurt a few cause i somehow feel that nothing can ever satisfy people cause at some point you'll fail to meet their expectations and you'll be judge by the wrong things you've done. Sitting down right now, i cant think of anything really good to write about my experiences this year other than manage to meet a two interesting people like adrian and greg 2 months back in melbourne that brought me joy and happiness and i hope many more to come.

Friends are like family, cause family is not just about blood, its bigger than that. Its the people that you choose to let in in your life, family is about support and working through things together. Recently when i came back home from dinner one night, i was told that all the things i went through with this good friend of mine who now is not in melbourne is now water under the bridge.. It came as a shock to me cause i trully appreciate him as one of very best friends. All in all, does distance deter one from getting close to another? maybe and maybe not.

Secondly, are relationships an element that will improve the way of life or is it part of life? I myself take relationship as being an element that will add joy and fulfillment to life. Having one or not is not important but however i acknowledge that we are all human beings and its nice sometimes to come back home knowing that there is someone waiting for us and to be able to cuddle someone in bed to sleep. However is it worth giving up friendships because of someone, definitely i'll say NO! However i have no idea how have i landed myself in a situation where one of my very good friend actually thought that i am stealing his potential partner away and stopped talking to me since then. Does insecurities of one causes one to act in this particular way where friends are not as important as partners? However the past is already a different story, but future can be changes. Well i know i have to start somewhere to amend this problem.

Before i end this first random post for the year, one question that i put forward to the readers of my blog (if there is still any reading it), why is everyone being so judgemental of little things when there are bigger issues out there which is yet to be settled.