2009 special events!!!

Let me start from the beginning of the year, first and foremost i think was mardi gras 2009! It was a fantastic event and a good time being with all my close friends partying like crazy. It was one of the best party i've been to. By the time we finished, we could see the sun coming out and we were wearing sunnies to prevent ourselves from being exposed to the public. LOL!!

Then i think the next big thing was jayson's surprise birthday party!! This was when he actually turned 26!!! Still very young of course!! Even though he always complain that he is getting old and he is destined to be single! LOL!

Following jayson's birthday was Julian's birthday! It was fun and crazy too. Not too sure what i can remember from that party other than being trashed again! But when i looked at mardi gras pictures, i look so much leaner compared to NOW!! OMGG!!! time to tone up before taipei..


(I know the picture is a little bit too small.. SORRY)

Finally.. it came to my BIGGG 21st birthday. Celebrated it with dr.ting and luke. It was a night to remember! Without all my friends coming to my 21st, it will not be fun at all. Thank you to all my friends who made my 21st birthday bash a night to remember!! At the same time, i manage to talked to one of my long lost friend once again in market! Something that i will not forget when my friend remembered to wished me Happy Birthday! and i was shocked that he remembered actually!!

Anyway.. come to year end now. I'm still waiting for something to surprise me from behind. Eventhough i've got lots of surprises already.. for example being attached to someone that i never ever thought of!

Christmas is coming... im waiting for santa to drop me a present that i can never imagine i would get!! LOL! Might it be tangible or intangible! hhmm..

Anyway.. im blogging at 3am in the morning.. while thinking of my partner. better sign off now!!Nights everyone!! xoxo

BLOGGING.. and PENANG once again!!!

Hi all..

Its been a year since i blogged!! once again i would say that it has been an amazing year since the start. Fall in love, fall out of love, fall back in again, fall out again.. and finally now im falling back in again! As for now, im back in penang once again for holiday! THREE months away from melbourne is going to be boring. But going back there in January for my sister's big wedding. I think thats the only wedding my parents will ever have. LOL! Besides that, I'll be working in KL for 2 and half months in CIMB Investment Bank under Group Strategy, Regional Branding. I hope this will be an exciting job so that i would be able to learn a lot to prepare myself for next year! One more year of studies, and i am off into the real workforce! WOOT!!

Now im just sitting in front of my mom's computer thinking of my partner which is not too far away from me. Partner once asked: "Whats our future"? I secretly started thinking of this big question, whats our future? One is in tasmania and one is in melbourne? Another LDR? But all i have has been put into this relationship and i trust things will work out in its own way.

I've not felt the warmth of a relationship for a very long time till now and i'm currently very happy with it. I've never want to put full effort into a relationship because i always think it will not last. Either that, i will always think of another person that i liked before that i hoped this person will fall for me once and for all. But come this time round, my current partner is great and kind hearted, and loving which i will never ask for more. All i would probably ask is that i have more time to spend with E.

Like the rushing of the waves,
I come to you carried by the silky tides of passion.
Appearing unquestioned, unhurt
As we lay side by side
Our arms entangled in a tight embrace,
Holding on for dear life,
Wanting time to move in slow motion.
Questions banished,
My thoughts are only you.
Whenever you kiss me I feel safe.
With you I am home, worries are cast aside.
Each loving caress, every gentle stroke savored,
A carefree man becoming
A little girl cuddled and adored.
Feverishly listening to every breath,
Expecting it to last forever.
You are my sanctuary amidst all the chaos,
Now I have proven
That heaven is not after death
For I am always in Paradise when I am with you

Anyway, up to here i'll write. I promise more post will come up as soon as i gathered my thoughts together and more of this years photos will be posted up here. Take care everyone. xoxo

Deepest fears??!!

our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate;
our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure;
we asked ourself who am i,
to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented and fabulous;
actually, who are you not to be?
we were born to make manifest
the glory of God that is within us
and as we let our own light shine
we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same
(movie : akeelah and the bee)

Therefore, you can be who you want you want to be.. the question is what you want to be and not who you are not to be! But the fact is are we afraid what we are suppose to be?

Whats my deepest fear in life? I asked myself why do i want to put myself through all these hardship and try to be someone that i am not suppose to be.
Why should i put up a smile when i am sad?! But one thing i tell myself is that when i put up a smile, at least i'll make someone happy.

five hundred twenty five thousand six hundred minutes in one year, how do we measure?!!

(from left: Jason 2, me, charles, ryan, aaron and wen)

Lets see.. i've watched this movie RENT yesterday with a friend which is really awesome!!! And it had me thinking for quite some time.. there is five hundred twenty five thousand six hundred minutes in one year, but what do we get out of every minute that we spend? And how do we measure?

It was kinda depressing to watch that movie as people dies in that movie, however it does remind me that life is short, why do we complicate our life that much??!! Why do we think so much and make things hard for ourself??

Do we actually exist in this world meaning that do we have an impact on someone's life?? If one day i just go missing, will someone actually realize that jonathan went missing??!! I think i have the certainty to say that at least 5 of my friends will actually realize that!! And i am happy to actually have them. One of my friend told me that a friend is always a friend, but who u surround urself with is important as they play a big influence in your life! I guess this is quite true. If someone who is close to you is synical, negative - hence u will be effected by them as well and vice versa.

Another question that got me thinking was is there actually a MR.Right, or Miss Right?? I told him maybe there is, maybe not. And his reply to me was maybe there is Mr. Right Now. I do agree to a big portion of what he says. And my reply was we think that we found Mr.Right or Ms.Right but circumstances does not allow us to do so.

Anyway.. all i got to say is life is short, don't make things so complicated for yourself.

"What do you want??"

In life, it all boils down to what you want? This can be very simple question and can be a very complicated question.
Do you believe the goodness in people, where the goodness can be seen and where the goodness can be exemplified through yourself?? AND as well as the greatness can be seen through you.
Have you made the wrong choices in life, and have you reach a point where you want to repair all the wrong choices??
Do you want your family, do u want a family?
Do you want to be a man that someone can trust or even someone that deserve to be love?
Do you want hope in ur life, do u know that you've made the right choices in life and have think about what you want in life?

Now come to the question of what I want? What jonG wants in life?
I want to be known as a caring person and a person that deserve someone in life, deserve to be love.
I want someone who i can love, who i can care for.
I want to have a purpose in life, believing that some day i will reach that goals that i want and some day i will be contented in life.
I want to believe in the existence of God. I want to believe that i can help someone and help change one's life.
But last thing, WHAT ARE YOU DOING ABOUT IT NOW???

MAKE A WISH, PLACE IT IN YOUR HEART, EVRYTHING U WANT, ANYTHING YOU WANT!!!

The Four Blessed Looks

I juz received this email from one of my groups from penang. I think its quite good though its talking about God. Everyone has a certain degree of belief in God no matter how someone approach this topic. Either christian, buddhist, or anything.... But this i s a good quote i think...

THE FOUR BLESSED LOOKS
Look back and 'Thank' God.
Look forward and 'Trust' God.
Look around and 'Serve' God.
Look within and 'Find' God!'
'I asked God, 'How do I get the best out of life?' God said, 'Face your past without regrets. Handle your present with confidence. Prepare for the future without fear!''
'Without God, our week is: Mournday, Tearsday, Wasteday, Thirstday, Fightday, Shatterday and Sinday. So, allow Him to be with you every day!'
'Life is short, so forgive quickly. Believe slowly.. Love truly. Laugh uncontrollably. Never regret anything that makes you happy. And have a wonderful journey

PRAYING!!!

I AM SUPPOSE TO STUDY!!! BUT DISTRACTED!!! OMG!!! I post THREE post in one day!!! Hahahaha.. CRAZY!!!!

So yea.. I know God Heals!! So i am juz hoping God will gives comfort to a friend of mine and let this friend sleep well and be prepared for the CHALLENGES and WORKS that is ahead for the next few days and as well as GOOD HEALTH!! And pray for me, myself and JONATHAN for exams too, corporation law!!!

I think writing out a prayer is really good so you can see what u actually write and not just say it out!

HAVE I CHANGED???

(2008)-- cake in my mouth!!!

(2007)

(2006)

(2005)
(2004)

(FLOORBALL!!!! MISS THE GAME!!!)

(2003)

(Take a wildest guest of which one am i) - 2002

Suddenly it hit me...
Have i changed?? For better or for worst

I really wonder myself sometimes

In and out of a messy lifestyle with the aim of finding love

Where am i now??

Black, White, or Grey?

And Have i changed?

Physical, Social, Emotional?

In this exact moment,

I DON'T know!!!

Everyday i pray, hoping that God would answer this question,

Who am I?

Am i a person who deserve love and care?

Am i a person who deserve great results?

Am i a person who deserve such a great person like this?

I wonder sometimes...

We often live up to others expectation...

i wonder who i am actually...

Although now i am felling comfortable with this, where i can be myself for once with someone

I just have to be patient and see.. what happens??

HOW MUCH CAN A PERSON CHANGE FOR THE LAST FIVE YEARS????

Mummy in town!!!

HAVE I CHANGED??!!!!

(hahahaha.. me hugging mua mummy!!!!)

(me, yungs and pui mun)

(me, mom, jacina and kish)... happy 4 or are we missing out someone??!

Past week... Mummy was in town.. It was a good time though there was LOTS n LOTS of nagging. But i mean its mothers.. their main job is to nag their kids i think. hahahahaha
My life has been hectic these few weeks because of exams.. Now am at work. Feeling a bit tired but then no one can take over my shift.. So i have to work and at the same time earn a bit of money for my holidays..!!!
Bought quite a number of stuff when mom was in town.. AND i bought her some stuff too.. since i am quiet stable with my finance. Hhehehee.. Very PROUD of myself. LOLLL
I've had fun with all my friends last saturday at market last week and get to spend time with some of my closes friend. What i like most these is just go out with a few friends.. Have a few drinks and chat. I think i am getting OLD... LOL..
Things has been going great for me other than for my exams... Yet i am thinking a lot of stuff in my mind. Everythin is GREY in colour.. None is Black or WHITE other than my Law paper and yet u can still argue ur way out with law.. ARRRGGHHH
But yea.. Can't wait for holidays!!! 2 more papers to go!!!