NO TITLE - 1st random post of 2010

Here am i sitting here in front of my computer after one year thinking what have i actually achieved within this year? Other than feeling burnt out, i would say i have achieved nothing for this year other than trying my best to please people around me. One year ago, my aim was to make people around me happy, maybe i have manage to achieve it but at the same time i think i've hurt a few cause i somehow feel that nothing can ever satisfy people cause at some point you'll fail to meet their expectations and you'll be judge by the wrong things you've done. Sitting down right now, i cant think of anything really good to write about my experiences this year other than manage to meet a two interesting people like adrian and greg 2 months back in melbourne that brought me joy and happiness and i hope many more to come.

Friends are like family, cause family is not just about blood, its bigger than that. Its the people that you choose to let in in your life, family is about support and working through things together. Recently when i came back home from dinner one night, i was told that all the things i went through with this good friend of mine who now is not in melbourne is now water under the bridge.. It came as a shock to me cause i trully appreciate him as one of very best friends. All in all, does distance deter one from getting close to another? maybe and maybe not.

Secondly, are relationships an element that will improve the way of life or is it part of life? I myself take relationship as being an element that will add joy and fulfillment to life. Having one or not is not important but however i acknowledge that we are all human beings and its nice sometimes to come back home knowing that there is someone waiting for us and to be able to cuddle someone in bed to sleep. However is it worth giving up friendships because of someone, definitely i'll say NO! However i have no idea how have i landed myself in a situation where one of my very good friend actually thought that i am stealing his potential partner away and stopped talking to me since then. Does insecurities of one causes one to act in this particular way where friends are not as important as partners? However the past is already a different story, but future can be changes. Well i know i have to start somewhere to amend this problem.

Before i end this first random post for the year, one question that i put forward to the readers of my blog (if there is still any reading it), why is everyone being so judgemental of little things when there are bigger issues out there which is yet to be settled.

Death.. Dreams.. Desire

I was watching My sister's keeper with Micah, Adrien and Joyce yesterday at home. Our plan of going out with natalie to celebrate her birthday did not go on! Cause people like Jessie cannot confirm! Anyway we ended up buying dvd's and watched this movie and it was good. Micah watched it before and told us that we will sure cry! But at the end of the day, proffan is the only one crying. All in all it was a good movie.

Death is something which we can't actually expect when it will happen. So i will always say that live your life to the fulless where if you die tomorrow, you have nothing to regret on the things that you've not done. Though none of us would say that we've done everything that we could have done, but what i wish is that when we turn back and look past our history, each of us will say that i've done something which i am proud of and i am not guilty of my past history and i've live my life the way i've wanted it to be. Most of all is that you're happy while you are alive. Then i would say that you have live your life to the fulless.

Dreams? What are our dreams? i came across this quote: "rich people, old people, poor people do deserve to have dreams as well" Someone can dream of the wildest dream in the world, but will that ever happen? We dont know. One of my friend was telling me how he was interviewing a new marketing executive, and that the new worker's dream car is just a BMW 5 series. And to me its nothing wrong, but to those marketing people, BMW 5 series is not considered a dream car. So sometimes one person's dream is one's reality.

Desire? Do we have desire in life? Do we allow the desire in our life to consume us? As i've work in CIMB so far, i've seen people being consume by work just to be able to achieve their desire in life. My desire now is to be happy of whatever im doing and to be able to satisfy people around me. However, sometimes things fall apart in life so that other things can fall together. I've seen many things fall apart: family, friends, relationship, companies. But do we learn something out of it or are we too proud to learn from other people?

I came to realize that in life each person has their own motivation which motivates them to continue living. Till now i'm still trying to figure out what's my motivation in life. Is my motivation being limited to work, studies? hhmm.. i still dont know. Right now my motivation is to make myself happy and to make people around me happy. Other than that, if everr things were to fall apart, i'll be in a mess.

Dostet Darum.

Expectations.. down with flu....

Sneezing in the office is not a fun thing.. walking up and down to the toilet.. is so annoying.. my nose is killing me! arghh!! hate the dust here in KL!!!

So..again in life.. there are a lot of expectations. Expectations from others, expectations that you set for others and also expectations that you set for yourself. But the question is that what do you do with all those expectations? This became a topic of discussion because one of my friend is turning 30, and he was like going on and on about what has he achieve in life or what expectations in life has he yet to achieve.

So as i think about it, you can usually confront your expectations and deal with it or leave it alone. Well i usually confront it and try to achieve those expectations that i have for myself.

What about expectations that others have on you? Sometimes it can be hard and challenging and yet it is up to you whether are you going to accept it and meet those expectations or try to pretend you dont know. Sometimes the expectations of others set on you could be too high and at times can be disappointing, however i guess at the end of the day, it all boils down to understanding between both parties that are involves or multiple parties.

Anyway.. was reading few days ago.. and came across this few quotes:
1. The message loses its effectiveness when the messenger behaves badly
2. Men are like parking spots, the good ones are taken and the ones that are left.. Hhhmmm
3. There is always a way to be good again.. (Totally agree on this one)

Now im in the office.. just waiting for lunch time to come.. cause waiting for my colleague to come back to recheck some figures.. hhmm... my tummy is hungry!!!

There is only one sin in the world

Just got into the office this morning.. I am now reading a book which is called the kite runner.. Pretty good book actually. As i was reading yesterday night before i went to bed.. i came across a few sentence which i feel is quite true. It goes like this:

"There is only one sin in the world, that is theft.
Every other sin in a variation of theft
When you kill a man, you steal his life;
You steal his wife's right to a husband;
Rob his children of a father.
When you tell a lie,
You steal someone's right to know the truth.
When you cheat,
You steal the right to fairness."

Yesterday night for the first time in a long time, i manage to get a good sleep. Not enough though!! Well everyone would say that they never get enough of sleep! I'm now sitting in the office thinking will my work life be like this when i graduate?! There are so many things to do and yet so little time! Work sometimes can be frustrating and i hope as time goes by, i'll be able to adopt to this culture within this 2 and half months! I dont know how people can do it, when someone start work at 8.30 and finish work at least around 7pm at night!! This job culture never happens in melbourne!

Anyway, i just got the news my boss is on M.C! HHMM!!! But there are still lots of things to be done! Need to prepare for presentation tomorrow morning and no research has been done for tomorrow!!

CYA!!!! XOXO!

Anniversary.. Work...

Today is my first month together with E.. and i can say that i'm still very happy to be in a relationship with E... Though there are some insecurities and some questions into this relationship.. but i guess everything comes in one package!! All i can say is that" everytime i close my eyes, i thank the Lord that i've found you"!

Besides that, i've been working in CIMB for the last one week.. and its been an experience i would say. Once again im back in CIMB! But this time round i'm allocated to Group Strategies, under ms. Gan Pai Li. First day at work was pretty much kinda tiring for me cause i never expect myself to finish work at 6.30! The trend here is that work finish at least around 6.30 even if you have nothing to do! But the good thing is that your have around one and half hour for lunch! This is because there is no place for lunch at all around the office block.. so everyone pretty much have to drive out!! HAHAH!!

Yesterday i came across this sentense while reading some book.. It states that man's plumbing is like his mind.. simple and very few surprises! However woman's plumbing is very complicated and God has made them that complicated!! HHMM!!


When i think of you
All i can say is thank you
You brought something fresh into my life
Which i've never expect it to happen
Laughter and smile is all i can think of
Lay down at my bed side
All i wish was you lying on me
One month came like a flash
But i know there will be many more months to come
The time we spend together will always be in my memories
Me, You, friends and families laughing together
All i can say now is I Love You!

-Jon G - 1/12/2009

Just before i finish typing.. my boss started giving me work again!
Dead line is thursday morning!
HAHAHA! OH NOO!!!

2009 special events!!!

Let me start from the beginning of the year, first and foremost i think was mardi gras 2009! It was a fantastic event and a good time being with all my close friends partying like crazy. It was one of the best party i've been to. By the time we finished, we could see the sun coming out and we were wearing sunnies to prevent ourselves from being exposed to the public. LOL!!

Then i think the next big thing was jayson's surprise birthday party!! This was when he actually turned 26!!! Still very young of course!! Even though he always complain that he is getting old and he is destined to be single! LOL!

Following jayson's birthday was Julian's birthday! It was fun and crazy too. Not too sure what i can remember from that party other than being trashed again! But when i looked at mardi gras pictures, i look so much leaner compared to NOW!! OMGG!!! time to tone up before taipei..


(I know the picture is a little bit too small.. SORRY)

Finally.. it came to my BIGGG 21st birthday. Celebrated it with dr.ting and luke. It was a night to remember! Without all my friends coming to my 21st, it will not be fun at all. Thank you to all my friends who made my 21st birthday bash a night to remember!! At the same time, i manage to talked to one of my long lost friend once again in market! Something that i will not forget when my friend remembered to wished me Happy Birthday! and i was shocked that he remembered actually!!

Anyway.. come to year end now. I'm still waiting for something to surprise me from behind. Eventhough i've got lots of surprises already.. for example being attached to someone that i never ever thought of!

Christmas is coming... im waiting for santa to drop me a present that i can never imagine i would get!! LOL! Might it be tangible or intangible! hhmm..

Anyway.. im blogging at 3am in the morning.. while thinking of my partner. better sign off now!!Nights everyone!! xoxo

BLOGGING.. and PENANG once again!!!

Hi all..

Its been a year since i blogged!! once again i would say that it has been an amazing year since the start. Fall in love, fall out of love, fall back in again, fall out again.. and finally now im falling back in again! As for now, im back in penang once again for holiday! THREE months away from melbourne is going to be boring. But going back there in January for my sister's big wedding. I think thats the only wedding my parents will ever have. LOL! Besides that, I'll be working in KL for 2 and half months in CIMB Investment Bank under Group Strategy, Regional Branding. I hope this will be an exciting job so that i would be able to learn a lot to prepare myself for next year! One more year of studies, and i am off into the real workforce! WOOT!!

Now im just sitting in front of my mom's computer thinking of my partner which is not too far away from me. Partner once asked: "Whats our future"? I secretly started thinking of this big question, whats our future? One is in tasmania and one is in melbourne? Another LDR? But all i have has been put into this relationship and i trust things will work out in its own way.

I've not felt the warmth of a relationship for a very long time till now and i'm currently very happy with it. I've never want to put full effort into a relationship because i always think it will not last. Either that, i will always think of another person that i liked before that i hoped this person will fall for me once and for all. But come this time round, my current partner is great and kind hearted, and loving which i will never ask for more. All i would probably ask is that i have more time to spend with E.

Like the rushing of the waves,
I come to you carried by the silky tides of passion.
Appearing unquestioned, unhurt
As we lay side by side
Our arms entangled in a tight embrace,
Holding on for dear life,
Wanting time to move in slow motion.
Questions banished,
My thoughts are only you.
Whenever you kiss me I feel safe.
With you I am home, worries are cast aside.
Each loving caress, every gentle stroke savored,
A carefree man becoming
A little girl cuddled and adored.
Feverishly listening to every breath,
Expecting it to last forever.
You are my sanctuary amidst all the chaos,
Now I have proven
That heaven is not after death
For I am always in Paradise when I am with you

Anyway, up to here i'll write. I promise more post will come up as soon as i gathered my thoughts together and more of this years photos will be posted up here. Take care everyone. xoxo